So it officially ended yesterday. After a week of proving and providing evidence and very practical(immediate future) ideas, I still got shut down. The first time it was the distance. The second time it's because of my habits. The story changed again. So I wonder what is the real reason? I imagine I filled a void when you had no friends and hated life, and now, after I pushed you to go out and made you happier, I'm no longer needed. That's my guess on the truth. Your logic and your EXCUSES just don't make any sense to ANYONE.
Either way I'm glad it's over. I have no good reason to move to a state where the girl that I actually had real thoughts of asking to marry me after living together for 6-8 months(yeah, recall me telling you i had began to save money again and had plans to put all my bill money to create a huge savings account? yeah for you to have a very, very nice ring) is a complete liar and can't even tell herself , or me, the truth. Or how about when things get tough(er) and leaves me? Especially when the events leading up to the break-up were filled with love and happiness? (just more lies) Or someone with lots of options and someone who's WILLING to work things out just so that things could be your way(financial, other habits) and it's still not enough? No thanks.
My mind is turbulent, full of thoughts, but there is one thing I know for sure. I cant be with someone who could never trust me, cant keep their promises and cant hold onto their convictions through tough(er) times. Not to mention all the shit noted above. Plus the general unhappiness about you that makes people not like you. (but i didn't care, because I loved you for who you were, right?)
I know I'm not perfect, but at least I strive to be, and willing to make things work(and not just when there's problems) to make both of us happy. I know for a fact there aren't a lot of people like me, and someday I will find someone who will appreciate that. Someone who will want to make me happy the way I wanted to make you happy.
-- Post From My iPhone :S
